I’ve just survived {I think} Day 2 of “Summer Home with The Boys”.
I. Am. Mentally. Spent.
I am having a selfish mommy meltdown. I’ve come to realize in the last two days that I have gotten very used to having them get on the bus at 7 am and not return home until almost 3. I’m having some serious transition issues I must say.
More fights to break up
More messes to clean up
8 extra hours of dialogue.
Oh the dialogue in my house is making me cringe. The sound of my yelling voice, the sound of my inside my head voice. {Thankful that the inside my head voice is staying there!} I tried a fake happy mommy voice for a few hours and that seemed to work well for awhile.
I’m so feel so ungrateful. I know I have healthy wonderful children whom I cherish, love and adore. But I’m just in an ill, frustrated, selfish, go away and leave me alone mood.
I want a quiet cup of coffee. I want to go workout. I want to clean my house. I want to finish my project. I want to organize my bills. I want to finish ALL the laundry. I want to do it alone!
Lord, help me not be a selfish mommy, give me strength to love the moment I am in and not desire the situation or things I do not have. Help me love them for the boys they are. Give me strength tomorrow for a new attitude.
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thank you! I need a new attitude all the time. I’m sitting at the computer trying to forget the dirty house and the fact that my boys will be ready to get moving soon. They won’t be little forever!
You are not alone in your feelings. Thanks for being brave enough to share what many of us feel! I ♥ some of the summer moments and time together, but the refereeing drives me insane!
Can I just say a colossal ‘ditto’ to that!? I’m trying to stay positive but we’re only on our first week of vacation.
No kidding… Haley and Alex are already at eachother’s throats and saying “I’m bored”. I’m thankful to be done with school… but is a little bit of “mommy without kids time ” too much to ask for!
I go through the same emotions this time of year….I think every mom does. Your blog is wonderful.
Hang in there, we all have days like this….my kids are still in school if you can beleive that! Breathe breathe breathe and do not be too hard on yourself….hugs
Thank you for your words, although we sometimes fear posting how we really feel, it is nice to know that we are not alone. God is always present and waiting for us to give it all to him. As I sit here I watch my son, play “Star Wars” on the dirty stairs and wonder why I focus on the dirt and not focus on an amazing little boy using his creative imagination!! Be still and focus on all that is good. Peace.